Depression city

I'm feeling pretty under the weather for the past couple days, and very depressed. It seems like I'm just depressed about the whole human condition. I've been having a lot of negative inner dialog, with little desire to change things. I find myself thinking "What's the point?" a lot lately.

My joints are feeling pretty achy, perhaps I have a cold. I've been sleeping a lot, tired all the time, although wishing I couldn't sleep because I seem to always have bad dreams... not nightmares, just not good ones. I am once again missing the ability to have lucid dream control that I had in my teens, but I don't seem to be able to muster up the energy to try and re-teach myself how to do that. It seems tied to the same reasons that I don't want to take care of myself or my hygeine.

I have a busy week for me, and I can already hear the negative thinking, setting myself up to make simple things hard. I see my therapist tomorrow, and I see my new insurance-approved doctor the next day to try and get approval for my MRI. I also have to go to the DMV and find out how much they are going to rip me off for new tags for my license plates. And there's a bunch of other little errands I have to do, but I'm dreading them, I'm dreading the driving, dreading the knowing that I'll be dead tired during the times that I have to do these things.

I'm still not exercising as much as I should, but I am taking my vitamins and supplements like I used to, but they don't seem to help as much as they once did, but I've only been taking them for about a week.