Technical issues resolved ;-)

Well, after months of trying to get the subscription service and the commenting features to work, I've given up. Technical support has been less than supporting, even after trying a few different service providers, so I've reluctantly decided to just simply remove the commenting and subscription features. They were both nice for the short time that they did work, and I wish I could keep them, but them's the breaks I guess. I have a little more sympathy for software developers now. It seems that, for some unexplainable reason, the code I publish isn't the code that other people see when they check my code from other locations... but I won't get into the gory details other than to say it's been a pain.

On the up side, getting rid of that part of the code should make the page load just a little bit faster for some people. :) If you wish to comment on anything I write, my email address is always available.

Bear with me

Please bear with me as I try to work out some technical issues with the site... hopefully I'll get this running smooth shortly.

In the meantime, things still seem to be the same-ol' same-ol'. That green drink stuff I've been taking only gives me a short energy boost for about fifteen minutes it seems, wish it lasted longer.

Next week I see my psychiatrist again, we'll have to decide if we want to try using Gabitril longer but maybe increasing the dosage, or switching to or adding an MAOI like Nardil.

I also just recently watched a documentary on some new herbal concoction out of Canada, not sure but I think it was on either the Discovery or Health channel. It's called E.M. Power+, and apparently it's not legally for sale anywhere since it hasn't been approved by any governmental agencies, but people still buy it and claim it works better than any other "real" medicine that they've tried. It's targeted more for people with bipolar disorder.

Here are a few links if you're interested in learning more about this:
http://www.truehope.com/home.asp
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20010530/msgs/65123.html
http://remedyfind.com/rm-4112-E.M..asp

I might bring this up with my doctor, I'm not sure. I took a look at the ingredients, and I'm already taking more than 90% of the "nutrients and vitamins" this supplement contains. Since it contains such high dosages of its ingredients, it would be toxic for me to take (in my humble opinion) along with my current vitamins. It's quite expensive too, and I'd like to see more clinical research done on it.

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About Panic Disorder

I've been getting newsletters from www.about.com's section on Panic and Anxiety disorders, and I let them must pile up in my inbox for weeks until today. Turns out there's some really good info to be had in there, from dealing with side effects, to helping your frineds/family/caretakers better understand this illness and better help you. You can check it all out at http://panicdisorder.about.com/. Bring your pop-up blocker with you though.

The sight is well laid out and easy to read, it's worth a look.

Man this stuff tastes nasty :)

I've been trying that drink out now for a week or so... boy it tastes nasty! But I am getting used to it, just like the label said I would... I can tell it gives me a little energy boost when I take it, I sure hope it does what it claims and helps de-toxify my system.

Oh, and I just remembered after reading my post about my newest medication.... Technically it's not a real new med for me since I was on Neurontin before and that works on GABA as well. I just doubled my dose last Monday, and so far it doesn't seem to be having much of an affect on me, except that I do seem to be able to sleep for longer periods of time now, sometimes I even get a full 8 hours! Now if it was just a restful 8 hours.... but I can't have the moon I guess, eh?

I'm sorry again about not updating this site more often... I literally have a stack of information that I want to convert into a new page or two, but my problems with sleeping and being tired and stuff have sapped me of my motivation.

Hmm, maybe I should use some of my motivation skills on myself? Think so? Take my own advice? Yeah, I need to get back in the groove here. Look for more content shortly and send me a nasty email if I you don't see any in the next couple days.

Anyway back to the topic of anxiety, driving is starting to get more difficult for me. Which really stinks, I like to drive. Well, usually anyway. And it's getting harder to go shopping anymore... which I also used to enjoy... up until recently, unlike most with anxiety, I used to love going to crowded shopping malls, but now it's getting real difficult. I'm going to have to look into that.

Still having problems with social activities

Yesterday my family and I traveled to the coast, it was real beautiful and a nice day, but towards the end of the day my anxiety started getting really bad, it's still really hard for me to go and hang out. I had to spend a lot of time sitting in the car and taking a couple naps.

Eating a big dinner helped though. I ate as much as I could stuff myself with. This forces my asympathetic Nervous system to take to take over, effectively reducing my anxiety. I wouldn't recommend this as the best cure for anxiety, but it is effective and in an emergency it's one way to help.

Starting Medication #17... and surprise! It's not an MAOI!

Well, just got back from seeing my psychiatrist, and he decided to hold off on going with the MAOI and instead start me on a newer medicine called Gabitril. It works on a different neurotransmitter chemicals than the medicines I've used in the past, this one being GABA (gamma aminobutyric acid), the major inhibitory neurotransmitter in the central nervous system. It is indicated for use by the FDA for partial seizures but doctors have noticed that it works as a mood stabilizer and helps with anxiety as well, so that's why they prescribe it even though it's not approved by the FDA for anxiety (lots of other drugs are used like this by doctors, Neurontin would be another example).

The only side effects I should have to worry about are some dizziness and drowsiness, which shouldn't be a problem because I only take one pill at bedtime. But we'll see.

He's also having me start taking this "Green Drink" stuff from Tony Robbin's website, to help alkalize my body and de-toxify it some from all the medicines I've been taking, so I just ordered that. It's supposed to taste real nasty but heck I don't care if it's going to help, but it sure is expensive, after shipping and tax it's almost 70 bucks a month.

Almost there....

Well, my sleeping and eating are starting to improve now that I've been off the Wellbutrin for over a week, I'm no longer having to force-feed myself one meal a day, now I can casually eat at least two small meals a day. I'm also able to sleep a little longer and a little more often, and I feel a little less like a zombie.


I'm still spending a lot of my times getting "lost" in playing games on my computer... turns out it's a great way to keep my mind off of the circular thinking that I'm always doing, it distracts me enough that my overall mood has improved noticeably.

I'm not sure why the "Click here to comment on this post" feature isn't working, I think there's something wrong with Squawk Box's system (they are the company who provides this feature for free.)