thoughts... emotion... balance...

I... I.. don't know what to write. I don't know what I want to say... or how to say... or who to say it to... I'm lonely... I'm sorry... I... I know I can't be what most believe I can be or do... I'm sorry I can't be who I could be if... things... were different... I'm crying. I miss so many things... but I'm not sure if I really every had those things that I miss... just a longing for some things that I will never have...