Stressful holiday weekend

This weekend, while at times was fun and great to see some family, was really a pressure cooker in terms of my anxiety, as usual I started to depersonalize and have panic attacks right when the fun was really starting to get going. At times I just curled up on the floor in a bedroom with a Teddy bear or one of the cats. There was another party for the family Monday, but I couldn't go to that becuase my anxiety level was so high and I was having irritable bowell symptoms as well (just gotta love that). Tomorrow is my last day for my mood-stabilizing drug Zyprexa, and I go down another half miligram on my Xanax as well. So, I'm not quite sure what to expect, but I'm hoping that going off the Zyprexa will cause my weight to go down and my attention to improve. Got another week to go until my brain scans, it's going to be tough waiting until then to see what they prescribe for me, but I hope it's all good.